Did y'all see/feel the weather this weekend in Buffalo??? It was 88 degrees on Saturday and SUNNY all weekend. It was AMAZING.
The only problem? NONE of my summer clothes fit.
I have apparently gained A LOT of weight over the winter. Depressing, right?
I gave away all my big clothes because I swore I would NEVER be this big again.
2 summers ago I could wear a bikini and look good. This summer, my "fat" swimsuit even looks bad.
I was so disgusted with myself... still am. I cannot believe I let myself go this much. I have no idea how much I weigh but I do know that I hit the 215 mark at my last doc appt. Which was in January. I have been trying to lose since then by giving up candy, sweets etc.... That alone was enough last time I lost weight. It didn't work this time. I don't think I have gained anymore weight since January, if anything I have stayed. BUT, its still enough to make my size 16 jeans not fit me anymore. Well, they fit, but I have a slight muffin top, which is gross and enough to make me want to hurl.
SO, I decided to change that.
As of today, I am doing what Ladiebug suggested. I haven't gone grocery shopping yet, but I have enough change in mind to add atleast 45 mins of exercise in the morning and drinking only 2 glasses of diet pop per day and filling in the blanks with water. The rest is just moderation in food until I can go grocery shopping.
The best part? Jesse agreed to do this with me. Thank you jebus.
I went into walmart to buy a clothes for the kids and thought I would try on some shorts for me since my shorts don't fit anymore and I bought a size 19. They are slightly big. But I wanted something comfy to wear around the house and outside with the kids. Something that was presentable and NOT my sweatshorts that I normally wear around the house. NINETEEN. That was enough to make me bawl my eyes out in the dressing room. Well that and the fact that I actually purchased some clothing from walmart. I frickin hate that store. But hey, they were only 10 bucks.
So thats the story. I am disgusting and cannot for the life of me figure out what the hell happened. In talking to Lindsy, she suggested that maybe I am not eating enough. And I am guessing she's right. I only eat when I am starving and by dinner time when I get a full meal, it sticks to my stomach and ass like gum.
I seriously cannot believe I just posted my weight on the web for all to see.