Wow.

I am sitting here listening to Justin scream at EVERYTHING and my head is just about to explode.

I am tired of the fighting.

I am tired of the "NO!" and the "I HATE YOU"

I am tired of Bailee not listening.

I am tired of getting lip from Kevin everytime I ask him to do one of his chores of which he gets PAID to do.

I am TIRED.

I am fucking tired.

I am seconds from tears. My head is going to fucking explode.

I NEED A FUCKING BREAK.

I tried to get one Saturday night. I went to a party....... I was gone from 9pm until 12pm. At that time I got a text that said that Jesse had installed a locator on my phone. To find out where I was. I got PISSED. and it ruined my night so I just went home.

I love being watched when all I wanted was a little break.

Because GOD KNOWS that my boyfriend does NOTHING when he lays in bed until 10am while I am up at 6:30am to shower and get the kids ready for school and try to clean up a little.

I am doing a full time courseload of school. Taking care of the kids and the house. Cooking dinner by myself every night and trying to make sure that Kevin practices his baratone and does his homework and cleaning up after the cats..... ( which is better because half of them have been treated with vet grade flea treatment )

I have been cleaning carpets for 2 days. ( thank god )

But I AM FUCKING INSANELY EXHAUSTED AND TIRED AND TRYING TO HOLD IT TOGETHER BUT JUST LOST IT WHEN JUSTIN SCREAMED AT ME FOR @ MINUTES AND MY HEAD EXPLODED ALL OVER THE LIVING ROOM WALL.

fuck.

On top of that.....

My mother's funeral is on Thursday.

I can't go to class on wednesday night because I don't have a ride there and back and no one to watch the kids.....

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh

Calgon, take me away!