Well, it seems we now have 21 cats in the house. We had a pregnant kitty and didn't even know it. She had one kitten last night, in the middle of our bed.
No I haven't slept.
Yes I am crabby as fuck.
Let me just say...... Willow, who had the 6 kittens awhile ago is VERY protective of her little ones. Kitty, who had a kitten last night is also VERY protective. Kitty and Willow have to be separated. They have already been in about 3 fights this morning thus involving the other male cats who hurt Jesse the other day making it for a VERY uncomfy situation in my house...... Kitty was freaking out because a male cat was growling and she attacked my leg. I am cut up pretty bad. I called Jesse crying and he said "we will handle it this weekend"...... and behind my breath I was saying BULLSHIT. I WILL HANDLE IT NOW!
He said "Im sorry it has come to this"......
yeah, me too.
Fuck my leg hurts.
I want to thank you all for your support in my post yesterday. That reason is the reason I have been so blog quiet lately. I didn't want to post it and have something happen. I have had my hopes up SO MANY TIMES before.
Honestly, I think I am ready to go. I am not sure when it will happen but it WILL happen. Even if the kids have to change schools over the school year. I do want to wait, but something is pulling me to B and away from J. Maybe it's my happiness??? I don't know.
I just want to be happy.
The l word was used yesterday between B and I. I told Kevin about whats happening. He told me he wouldn't miss J at all if we didn't live here. That said so much to me..... in fact it screamed at me. I feel horrible that it took this long.
I was thinking that MAYBE I could get J to live somewhere else and I could stay here. I MIGHT be able to get Allyn to help with the bills a bit. If not maybe J will help contribute....... I'm just not sure. It's all making my stomach hurt.
Thanks again guys. I love you all....... so so so so sos os sososososoosososo much.